wow ananda that sure is a lot think about so early in the morning lol j/k
anyway..i was thinking about gratitude lists today and how they always make me feel uncomfortable. Everytime I start thinking about what I'm grateful for, i immediately start thinking about people who are in much worse shape than me, not just addiction wise-but in general, you know, all the people dying from cholera, malnutrition, war, etc.. and what strikes me is that these people are still more grateful than I am.. they don't need to be told to make lists or to be reminded of it, even though they're in extremely dangerous and uncertain circumstances. So what's wrong with me? Am I really that spoiled and out of touch with reality that I can't really appreciate what I have?
I never casually mention being grateful in conversation.. but other people, people who are really *grateful*, are always saying how blessed or lucky they are are, and its not akward to them. So whats the point of lists when I can never reach that state of being naturally grateful?