Originally Posted by
least 
Sorry that you are having those destructive thoughts. Recognize them for the lies they are and let them go bother someone else. And yes, perhaps an honest talk with hubby tomorrow about your worries.
Thank you least. I know they're lies but they sound so convincing -- in this moment when I'm vulnerable. This is the closest I have come to relapsing and I'm terrified. I'm afraid I won't make it back. You'd think that would be enough but somehow the other fears and worries are getting in the way. I definitely will talk to my husband tomorrow. He won't be home until very late so I'm not going to work myself into a tiz at midnight. I just want to make it through tonite sober. It's a terrible feeling -- like wanting water after a long day in the sun.