Thankyou all....
I told my flatmate to drink the beer... if he dont tonight i will bin it.
Thanks for all that you said.... I will deal with what i can... and when i can... some sh*te i would really love to bury and never deal with... but if i am ever to live a sober life i have to at least attempt to resolve it... or at least get it out....
As Judy says... i really struggle with getting to grips with openin up... i block so much through drinking... now i dont have that... but i do feel stronger today... maybe its just knowing i wont be pushed or more accepting i wont push myself beyond my limits... its also knowing maybe its ok to feel what i feel and not be ashamed...
I dont know what it is... but if it works... i'll keep a hold of it.
Again thankyou for all you guys said and for those that helped the other night.
Be well
louis