i am in the same place, i hold people around me in contempt because they are asking me to stop drinking. as an alcoholic we lash out at the closest person to us and we hold it against them that they are " making " us stop..... we can not see that they are looking out for our best way of life... i am in a very upseting place... the person i am with has been a heavy drinker also.. now, this person has decided to stop, but i did not want to.. so it has been laid on the table that i stop or we are done... a lot of contempt i am feeling for this person right now...