Thanks, D.
I'm trying to get some bearings, I guess. For the first time in my life, I'm willing to do what is right for me. Or what feels right, anyway. And to he.ll with what other people think. It hurts, though. You know firsthand that it's hard to say that, and to accept it. Maybe that's one of the meanings of recovery...
My addiction is more artificial than their dreams; but, like my orientation and your condition, it is still more real. This was a wake up call.
Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I'm sorry, Matt.
You didn't let anyone down, any more than I let my parents/family down by having CP.
They may feel let down....but it's not our fault, or our place to fix that.
We just have to learn to live with it - easier said than done.
I don't have to tell you how much p*****g in the wind the drinking thing was, either.
I'm sorry they got to you so badly, and I'm sorry you let yourself be let. Sometimes excuses sound pretty damn good, I know....but you're right - it's always an empty promise of healing and respite.
This wasn't your screw up to 'fix', Matt - and maybe, if anything good can come of this, you'll take that to heart this time.
hugs
D