Glad you decided to join us and glad to hear you've made the decision to not drink. . . even if it's just for today. You mentioned that you've read a lot of books on addiction, then I'm sure you've heard One Day at A Time. I can't emphasize how important it is to just make it through the day you're on. Looking at a commitment for a lifetime will overwhelm just about anyone.
God Bless,
Judy