Hi, I understand how hard all this is. When i first seperated from my xab i thought my heart would break in two, no contact was so difficult, i was obsessed with him he was my drug. Not knowing where he was and what he was doing drove me crazy. this feeling stopped for me when I reached my bottom. Unfortunately I took him back several times before getting to this stage, his manipulation reached an all time high, his final lie was telling me he had cancer. That was the last time i saw him, and things got easier.
I can honestly tell you hand on heart it was the best thing he ever did for me. 16 months later and my life is peaceful, full of life and laughter for both me and my children.
Keep strong Hopless and in time you can change your name to Hopefull.
Gill