Welcome to SR Curious.
I don't think you should get too hung up on what to call it. You know you have a drinking problem so you have to figure out the solution to the problem.
I have the same problem as you do. If I go out drinking at the bars it almost always ends up with the same results which are never good.
I tried to moderate for several years with very little success and eventually came to the realization that the only solution for me is not to drink.
Good luck.