thank you so much for you thoughts
I really need people who can relate right now.
I am a whirlwind of emotion right now and I am turing it over to God.
I think another contributing factor is that my meeting today (which is my refuge) was a very tense meeting due to some comments made my the person chairing. I think I really needed some of that peace I find at my meetings and I had to work really hard to find it.