Paul, you will NEVER encounter a person who loathes labels more than I do. However, if it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, blah blah blah. Only you can feel in your gut what is right. I am not here to tell you what to do or not do. I am here to support you in any way possible. To this end, I hope this thread does not get shut down. You are wondering. You are curious. You are not in jail or an institution nor you are dead. I got an email the other day from a hard liner that did NOT go over well with me. Still, I know his heart is in the right place and he believes as he does. I am sure plenty of people in this thread have your well being at heart - even those I do not want on my doorstep
Take care of YOU #1 and the heck with the rest.