Originally Posted by
doorknob 
I admit that I started looking up how to close out my account... I'll just read for a while (like I had been doing for the most part).
The title of your post says "torn", so you are struggling, wanting to drink but knowing it is a bad idea? We have all felt like that, it is par for the course, mate. Stick around please. You don't have to be already recovered (or even sober) to post on a recovery board! LOL