I'll just say that I was NOT calm last night.
I was a screaming banshee.
It felt good to get it out.
He is making choices without considering the financial, legal, or emotional ramifications for himself, his son, his XW (now, fiance?), or me. The carelessness makes me angry.
But I will be alright. His decision doesn't break my heart in a "I still love him and want to be with him" kind of way, because I don't. That makes it easier to deal with whatever happens.
I'm in the midst of some anger. I trust that acceptance will come, as will the appropriate time to take action.
Thank you all for offering your support and letting me share here. It is such a blessing to have a safe place to discuss these struggles.
-TC