I am learning how to cope without him.I have told him a thousand times to get help and I will be there for him..over and over again ...I keep on accepting his calls though and I feel like he has died,so when he calls me I doesn't feel as lost.My first husband died at the age of 20 when he was working and I was pregnant with our second child.This husband and I have been married for 25 years with 5 daughters.They know he is an addict and a liar.It is me wishing for him to be who he used to be.Now if only I could quit picking up the phone from my second "dead" husband.