Selfseeking I have been in a similar spot that you are in now, my disease screaming at me "Do not ask for help, fight this alone, you can handle me!" For me isolation was when my disease would get the upper hand on me!!!! Standing alone facing the beast!!!
Please reach out, call your sponsor, call some one who has been through this! Do not do as the beast wants you to do, there is no reason to battle the beast alone.
Did you stay sober for 6 months all by your self?
The beast wants you to be alone, can you beat the beast alone?
Check your record. Were you ever able to stay sober for 6 months alone?
This could be just the thing you need to get over the hump, to show the beast that you will not battle alone, that you will ask for help instead of succumbing to his demands. You are reaching out here, reach even further. Are you not willing to do what ever it takes?