Thanks for your honesty and willingness to put this out - for support and also for inspiration for some of us.. I am just over 3 mos and struggling with some stuff right now and it really inspires me to read your process, your struggles, and your huge honesty.
I think you have courage.. it sounds like a tough road and that you have worked really hard. Looks like you have gotten some good ideas in this thread.. I don't have advice - just thanks and support for you on this journey.. Keep going - you are worth it!