Hi TC
These emotions are just material to work on yourself, of course I wish I could give you some wise advice but I am glad you are recognizing these emotions. With them, you can work. Work and release, is my motto nowadays LOL
I tend now to see EVERYTHING is between alcohol and its victim, alcohol will draw ANY person to the victim's life in order to support itself...
These are two links that give me more clarity when I start playing psychologist with F:
Addiction, Lies and Relationships
Addiction, Lies and Relationships
Dependency on Drugs and Alcohol
Dependency - Relationship
I found the same thinking with F. having a girl living with him almost right away (oh yes they live together) and it just sounds like a continuation from our relation. Only she is younger, looks up to him *yuk*, and is a heavy drinker herself so as long as she does not complain about abuse, provides sex and supports alcohol, for F. its heaven. Ok. Its THEIR life.
So glad I am not there anymore... hope you get the chance to read those links! specially the second one...
(((((((((TC)))))))))))