*Sigh* I know you all are right. My mom was married to an alcoholic for 13 years and we compared 'promises' and 'sorry days' the other day. I am going to miss this girl so much =( she was so perfect for me with the exception to this...
Thanks all, I am staying strong. She tries to contact me on a regular basis and I just ask how she is doing and then say I have to go. I just wish it could be over completely and not this lingering pain. Better this short term lingering pain though then a lifetime of constant pain... wish me luck as I keep saying no to her question of getting back together due to her promises of sobriety, it's very hard.