AmIAnAddict
I know I am! I'm a recovering opiate/cocaine addict, just shy of seven months clean. Before going to rehab, I was taking 30mg of hydo and oxycodones every day along with snorting/smoking an 8ball of cocaine. I'm lucky to be alive. That's called 'speed-balling' and it's a very deadly combination. DON'T DO IT!
If you really want help, the first thing I'd do is tell your doctor. He want be shocked, he's seen before. He sure is prescribing you a lot of meds...10 oxycodones per day, K-pins, and Somas? WOW!
In the meantime, welcome to SR. You'll find a lot of support here along with good advice from people who've been exactly where you are, so keep posting.
Hang in there,
Penny