Second what surlyredhead said: your mom is toxic for you because she is still addicted.
Bless your heart, I know what it means to want normal parents but not have them. Both my parents were alcoholics. I always wanted parents like I saw on TV, but, nep, didn't happen.
Focus on you and your recovery. Put mom on hold because she is not helping.
And, as you travel this journey in your recovery, you may find that lots of anger will well up inside you regarding your mother. It sounds like she has been very destructive in your life and has caused you a lot of pain.
I would suggest finding a therapy outlet during this period of your recovery. Having someone to talk to has been a life-saver for me. When I started in my recovery, I went quickly back to my childhood and all of that crap. It's crucial to have a hand to hold onto when you go on that childhood-evaluation recovery ride. It's not easy.
Congratulations on getting clean and starting your recovery, and, welcome to SR!