I hope that your mother can find her way to recovery, and maybe, at that time, she will be able to mend fences with you. But, for now, I agree that you should not see her. For me, I don't think it's good for you or your child to be hearing things like that. As Surly said, it doesn't mean you don't love her, but it means that you love yourself enough to take care of yourself and your child.