Thanks for the added kind words from special friends..
Rowan,
Your right...It is so hard to keep reaching out because I want all this to go away..
I want to be positive for others and encourage anyone that is new or hurting too... This bothers me a great deal.I just can't get out of myself.I want to quit crying, it is so hard to type when tears blind your vision..
I will continue to come here and go to AA...I know that it is part of the healing, and that it will get better...I believe that this is a growing process, and I will be better at helping others...
Thanks to all.