Jerry
Benadryl is probably not THAT big of a deal regarding your brainstem functions (breathing, heart beat...) .... But, think about it, and I am WELL qualified to speak about this...
I would drink beers on weekend days, or days off, starting early afternoon, sometimes late morning, drink until it didn't feel so good, sleep them off (and I didn't just use benadryl....) and get up and do it again in the evening... especially if I was on my own for the day...
I was usually alone or isolating by myself, and didn't really think I was hurting anyone... meanwhile my life was going to sh*t around me.
It has taken me seven months to understand how normal people "do" days off and weekends... Didn't just come back to me, I am having to work at it... but it's a better way to live, for me.
Sorry you are out there alone... that's risky for abuse of alcohol. No one around, boredom... Maybe you could, say, take up golf??
(hope you don't mind my attempts at humor, they are meant in a lighthearted way...)
Mark