Thanks Laura. Its good that you are able to see now that (like most of us) there isnt a happy medium we can find with drinking. Its that all or nothing relationship that exists whether we like it or not. So we have the option of resenting it or accepting it and the positives that go with it. If we treat it like the true allergy it is for us, then we can embrace the good aspects of not being able to drink - like the fact that we are living in reality and are in control of our reactions. I love being able to wake up and know what i was doing the night before.
Hang in there! We are all in this together!