savior I was where you are at for 5 years..... minus the paxil.
Absolute best advice I can give you right now based on my experience is drink just enough to keep the shakes away until you see your doctor.
Now here is the most important part, if you are serious about wanting to get and stay sober then you MUST get HONEST!!!!
When you see the doctor tell him the WHOLE truth about your drinking, especially about the shakes, because after the shakes start if you are going cold turkey the really bad stuff may start!!! Things that may KILL you!
I am not a doctor, but I have been known to take bets, and I will bet you a dozen doughnuts that if you are totally honest your doctor will help you to get medically detoxed, it may be in or out patient, but that is what I am willing to bet!
Good luck and please be HONEST with your doctor, I have found honesty to be one of the keys to sobriety.