What a very brave thing you did throwing the wine away. Well done on anotherr day! I totally agree that the crying is the opening to all your other emotions. Just let it all out, sometimes a good sob just washes a lot of "dirt" away. They also say that tears of genuine emotion contain certain hormonal secretions and can increase the production of seratonin which makes you feel better after. Thank you for your pst, and don't be afraid to post what you are feeling there are so many of us out here reading it and feeling less alone for it as well.