Ok I am at step three but cant move forward because the minute I give it to God and start to feel really good about the decision I have made I wake up the next day scared and fearful and then take it right back.....
Its like a never ending cycle. I read meditate and get to a point of serenity and then its gone again. I am trying to hold onto it and trying to feel that release but its like breathing, in (serenity) out (fear).....