Hi Mamabin!
Keep your days! Really, it's not worth it. Let me take the fall for you. I understand (obviously!), how that "last" drink experience dims over time, and how "a couple" sounds like a good idea. But, truly, it didn't even feel good. It felt weird after being sober. Sometimes, when I'm feeling shaky, I read posts here (like mine), and the reality of this disease just smacks me in the face. I should have done that last night, but I didn't.
keep up the good fight!