Welcome to SR Scaredtodie. I would definitely find a doctor to talk with. I finally came clean with my doctor and told her I was an alcoholic, but I wasn't drinking anymore. She wrote it down in her notes and will keep it as a reference to any future problems I may have.
I would think a doctor could definitely steer you in the right direction. Go until you find the doctor you are comfortable with. As Hevyn said please also find a face to face support group if you can. It will help you big time, but the first step is in the medical field. You can do it hun. Hugs to you and I am very grateful you joined this community. It has kept me sober almost a year after many, many years of drinking crazily every day. I feel so much better and you will too.