Originally Posted by
Crazy4Him 
Woke up crying after three hours of sleep. I just called a psychologist because... I need someone to talk to. I've never felt an anger like this in my life. Last night before I came on here I wrote him a text saying we needed to talk about how we are going to behave while we're at work since he wants me out of his life and I'm done playing his games. I'm just now realizing that I basically invited him to call me and just by sending that text I AM playing his games. And now I'm dreading whether he will call or whether he wont call. I know I will hurt either way. I don't want to pick up the phone but I'm so afraid I will.
I just don't understand why he acted so friendly towards me all week asking about my life and telling me he wanted me in his life forever if he was just going to tell me to get out of it the next day. Is it the alcohol? Him getting revenge because I broke up with him? Just plain 'ol hatred? I don't want to know. I don't want to know this man anymore.
Trying to talk about something, to come to some adult arrangement to get through a difficult period is not going to work.
He's acting friendly because it draws you in.. he needs to draw you in to be able to push you away again.
I don't believe you when you say you don't want him. I'm saying this with love but you have to be honest with yourself first and foremost. If you don't want him and I am reading this all wrong then I apologise unreservedly. If you do want him then you have to ask yourself why when he makes you so miserable.
:ghug