Woke up crying after three hours of sleep. I just called a psychologist because... I need someone to talk to. I've never felt an anger like this in my life. Last night before I came on here I wrote him a text saying we needed to talk about how we are going to behave while we're at work since he wants me out of his life and I'm done playing his games. I'm just now realizing that I basically invited him to call me and just by sending that text I AM playing his games. And now I'm dreading whether he will call or whether he wont call. I know I will hurt either way. I don't want to pick up the phone but I'm so afraid I will.
I just don't understand why he acted so friendly towards me all week asking about my life and telling me he wanted me in his life forever if he was just going to tell me to get out of it the next day. Is it the alcohol? Him getting revenge because I broke up with him? Just plain 'ol hatred? I don't want to know. I don't want to know this man anymore.
