Hi Kimmieh, just offering some hugs. Alcoholism works like that. I am sorry for this guy. He seems very, very troubled. I am sad he is on that path, but well, who knows what bottom he needs to reach to wake up? If he ever reaches it...
Anyhow, please be gentle with yourself... this event will help you move forward in the future... the good thing is that you are more convinced now of the path to take, so that's good news
please do something great for yourself today, even if its little...