feeling paranoid
I have been feeling paranoid and stressed lately. I know I haven't been eating right 4 a while. I am so tired of all the drama in my life. I am tired of my H and I wish he would get clean. He thinks he can handel it on his own. He has a cousin that he was very close to comitt suicide years ago after getting out of rehab. That is his excuse for not going. I know it is typical addict thought to blame someone else for the problem.
Dissions are so hard for me to make. His family wants to have him committed. I did that once and he just resented the hell out of it. God I wish I had turned my back on him years ago. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself. :sink