Thirstforlife,
I just want to start off by saying I'm sorry....
I usually use XOXO as my name at the end of my posts and my avatar is "hugs and kisses". When I first read your post it made me feel sad...because I genuinely care about the people that come in here. This place inspires me and when I post with hugs and kisses it's just a reflection of how I'm feeling.
I've never experienced the situations that you have been through and it sounds like you've been though a lot. I hope that you are doing ok and you are in my thoughts...I mean it when I say it.
This time I will not sign off with X's and O's, but I will just say "Please take care of yourself...OK"?
See you around.