So my work called today and asked that I bring in all my paper work. I asked if I could fax it to them. It was fine for them, just so they got it.
My mind tells me that they are looking for a way to fire me. That may be true, but honestly...so be it.
I'm nine days in to sobriety.
Really this is not a picnic. I have little energy, strong sadness and total discomfort with myself.
I will not blame anyone else. I got myself into this mess. I've had multiple chances at recovery. I have thrown away every single one of them for a selfish reason on my part.