Tired of being pathetic
I just spent the last 30 minutes reading through all of the threads I've started. It's actually embarrasing how incredibly weak I sound. Funk booze for making me that way. Scared, helpless, soul less, timid, etc... THAT IS NOT ME... Never has been. Booze has turned me into a complete and utter joke.
I have basically started the same thread 6 times. All about help me, what do I do, I'm craving, etc... I need to finally shut the f up and just do what so many others have done. Go to a meeting, work the steps, listen, and don't drink.
Enough with the epiphanies, waiting for a sign, am I an alcoholic, blah, blah blah, blah, freakin blah... Enough excuses, it's time to just get it done.
I will not drink today!