Originally Posted by
Jrock75 
I've said "but I'm different"quite a few times. In fact just recently with the Xanax. My ideology was since I was prescribed them it was ok to take even when I had no anxiety. Now I have an up and down relationship with the Xanax. I'll quit taking them for awhile(usually a couple weeks). I'll get cocky think that I'm "stronger then the drug" and start taking them just when I get bored. and go through it all in a couple weeks.(actually haven't taken one in three days) And to be perfectly honest with myself I don't know if I'll ever truly be sober. One thing I know for certain,doc should've never put me on those damn things.
Myself, have to be
extremely careful about what I put in me, before I came back in I would take
just about anything to change the way I
felt. I consider myself an alcoholic because alcohol came first and at the end of the day it was
always my doc.
These days, if I'm seeing a doctor for the first time,
recovering alcoholic is part of my medical history.