Thanks for the posts. I am sober today. I am still an anxious mess emotionally, but physically feeling better.
The fact that people on this site don't seem to look down on me and being welcomed back so unconditionally in AA, gives me hope for myself. You are doing what I'm having a real tough time doing right now, believe in myself.
I am working on faith. I believe so much in a power greater than myself.
Faith that I deserve guidance and direction, well that is a tough one right now. I will not give up for today.
Nicki - Thank you for posting on this thread. I was very fearful that I had burned a bridge with you, before we were even able to meet face to face.
I am so excited to finally meet you, I hope some time soon.
Take good care of yourself and believe me, no matter what is going on with you, I'll be there for you in any way my early sober self can be. I may not
have much ESH, but however I can be there for you, I will.
Thanks again everybody.