I know everyone is right
I know that all of you are right, this kind of stuff goes thru my head all the time. The truth is that I know addiction more than I know normal. I just put myself on the list for a 28 day treatment program.
Its just really sad that this is what my life has become and I need to quit rashionallizing my behavior and just do it.
I have to go and pick my dog up from the groomer; thank you everyone for your input and support.
I really cannot believe I relapsed like this again.