I don't understand. You are wondering how you're going to detox but refused to go to detox?? Why didn't you wish to accept help in detoxing? I must also ask you to please not drive again if you've been drinking. You could end up destroying lives, your own as well as others.
I would suggest you call your doctor and ask for help in detoxing and then just DON'T DRINK ANYMORE. I hate withdrawals so badly that I won't allow myself to drink cause I don't want to go thru withdrawals anymore.
I hope you find the help you need to stop drinking, both from inside and outside yourself.