So many scary moments,
once being "given as payment" for drugs aka raped.
driving home closing 1 eye to help me see better while my toddler daughter was in the car
waking up in bed with strangers
getting arrest for PI
Jumping out of a moving vehicle 50 miles from home late at night cause my date was drunk and being abusive and running until I found help
Blackouts
many more
but the scariest was the last -waking up in my home (I live alone) not knowing where I was or what day it was, calling 911 and then spending a week in the hospital because I had overdosed on alcohol and sleeping pills and prescription pain killers which resulted in burning a hole in my liver and then having to call my daughter and tell her what I did. To this day, 18 months later, I still don't remember anything from the day I took the overdose, I did not know I was suicidal. Alcohol scares the h*ll out of me now, I won't even eat food that is cooked in a "wine sauce". I never again want to risk not knowing what I am doing.
J