Did some good reading in Smart Recovery and LifeRing books yesterday - was feeling my own joy in sobriety slipping.. maybe like you were feeling in NY SelfSeeking.. I use the writings from both of those programs for support a lot.
The Smart Recovery handbook has one page dedicated to the benefit of abstinence over moderation and every time I read it I find myself thinking "duh...." It is such simple stuff but years of trying to think of excuses to moderate will take more than a few months of sobriety thinking.. The very simple one that got to me yesterday was something like "because with abstinence you get to feel what you are like without altering substances"... For me this means really valuing what sobriety is - i.e. going TOWARD sobriety rather than AWAY FROM alcohol.
So much for my thought for the day - it worked for me yesterday to realign my own path and somehow today I feel happier.
Hey all you - love being here with all of you... Do need this forum a lot! :ghug