TSH, I kinda wished you hadn't taken this post down because it was so good to read it! A few weeks ago I found myself in a bar, buying drugs, driving home drunk, and almost getting arrested for it. And I thought, the whole time, WHAT AM I DOING?!?! What the frack is wrong with me? I'm doing well, have a number of things going for me, and I seem determined to chuck it all out the window. I dunno, maybe it was just nice to read that I wasn't alone.
Toss the sleeping pills, doll! That's not improving things, that's switching to a different addiction. And the best advice I have been given recently: Take care of yourself, and don't feel guilty for it. I love ya, TSH.