dear cubile, i will hold you in my prayers and pray you continue on your new journey through life. even not being an alcoholic, life is difficult, i can only imagine the trials and tribulations you face.
my son must be a "tortured soul". a mother wants to fix their kid's problems, but this one i can't fix. i would love an apology from him for all the pain he's caused me - he's caused me heartache pain and $$$ pain. until he realizes the mistakes he's made, the pain he's caused, the lies he's told, there will be no apologies to anyone - not even himself. he has 2 beautiful children who need an apology from him as well. none of us may ever get that apology, and that, too, breaks my heart because without his feeling he needs to apologize, there is no recovery.
all i can do is pray for his safety and continue to hope he one day realizes the happiness that could be his.
god bless you, lucy