Super post, Matt!
But, I think you're not giving yourself enough credit. You didn't get through more than a year of recovery without a lot of work.
When I began recovery, it slowly dawned on me, that every single decision I ever made in my life, was based upon fear. In that sense, my decisions were unconscious too. I was fumbling in the dark, hiding from everything and afraid. It also fed into the role I was playing in life, which was 'victim'. I loved being a victim. I never had to take responsibility for anything and I could always blame someone else for my problems.
So, making conscious decisions was pretty scary, but so exciting. I am taking care of me and I do know what is the right thing for me. If I don't know what's right, I wait, I think, I pray, I talk to people I trust deeply, and it works out.