I'm horrible at decision-making and I've found myself realizing the same thing.
I realized that if I continue to make
unconscious decisions I'll end up making the wrong decisions. When I make decisions without thinking, I end up drinking or not going to meetings or just generally acting like an a double s.
In order for me to be actively recovering I have to be conscious about everything I do. It ain't easy!
Great post by the way. :ghug3