Thanks for the responses. I just am having a hard time connecting with anyone right now, including "close" friends. I'm trying to stay positive, but it's very hard. Every time I hear more about these meetings, I dread going to them. I don't like the 12 steps. I just want to talk to people about my experiences. They say that the healing process for ACoAs has to involve connection with other people. I go to these meetings and all they talk about is praying. I don't pray. I don't get to talk about my experiences or listen to others. I wish I had that option. I talk to my friends and they change the subject. It's like, I'm actually reaching out for help and it's not there. I'm going to therapy, but it's like... she's so positive and wants me to be. I always have to leave being positive, acting like she's helping me. I'm not very positive.