Hi Nallabelle, this thread made me think of when I was at treatment detoxing off of opiates and the third week there we had "Family Program"...I was fine with my husband coming but I was really stuck on the idea that I did NOT want my parents coming. I did not want them so into "my business" (never mind that they were the ones who paid out of pocket for me to be there!). I was grabbing at something to control, even tried to cancel them coming when they had already driven up and were at a hotel! I was hysterically crying, FREAKING out! I remember the fear and loss of control I felt as some of the most intense hours of that entire month I was there.
It is so hard to come to terms with the consequences of addiction, and how it really does affect our families in MANY ways that we can't/won't see. You are doing great!