Wow I didn't see that coming.
WTF........... a bit strong, but OK, if thats how you feel. wht is: I don't care about him, I love him, he's not my BF he's my husband (has been for over 16 years) and father of my child. And as far as not hearing me anywhere in this post, it's all me, mistakes and all.
I call his room daily to see if he still has a place to stay, because it matters to me. My recovery wouldn't happen at all if I didn't like my self. And I wouldn't like myself very much at all if I turned my back on him completely.
I know that EVERYONE says no contact, and maybe they are right, but I can assure you and anyone else this much: That will happen on my terms.