Hi Lynn
I'm a recovering opiate/coke/crack addict, 172 days clean. I relate to what you're going through. This past Sunday, out of the blue, I had this overwhelming craving to use. (crack)
I came to this site right away and posted about it.
You did well in your resisting to use with your husband/BF? I know everytime I resist the urge to use, it makes me stronger. But I agree with a previous post...you have to change your people, places and things. You can't put your sobriety to a foolish test by going around the drug or the person(s) that you used with, especially if they are still using.
I used to listen to a certain kind of music when I was on my way to score and use. Nowadays, if I hear anything on the radio that reminds me of using, I change the channel. I don't go around or talk to anybody that uses, including my best friend.
In order for me to stay clean, I've had to change EVERYTHING!
You can't have it both ways. You have to choose...Using=death or sobriety=LIFE.
CHOOSE...LIFE!
Peace
C4P
