Im selfish but hate to admit it. Sure I want
it all and I want it now. And if i dont get my
way or what I want i can cop a huge re-
sentment, pout, crawl in a shell, and put
up walls between me and you.
In recovery we learn lots of neat
things to help us get better at not
being selfish and miserable.
Unhappiness and mood swings
have been linked to my chemical
imbalance in my body.
When i stopped drinking and wasnt
dependant on a chemical substance,
which controlled my every emotion,
thoughts, actions...then i was all
over the place with my mood swings.
I was unhappy, sad, lonely, tired....the
whole shoot and match....
Never satisfied my entire life whether
i drank or not....so into self, selfishness,
self -centeredness.
Later i got my chemical imbalance under
control and my mood swings subsided...
I learned to be happy by suggestions
passed on to me by my sponsor and
others sharing their own ESH with me.
In order to be happy with me I had to
learn how to get out of myself....to
take the focus off of me and place it
on someone else.....and that is where
helping others in recovery came into
play.
I learned to do my own type of service
work yrs ago by bringing things to eat
at each of the many meetings i would
attend. Doing this gave me a purpose
to stay sober and make meetings which
is very important in recovery.
Today i do more of my service work
here in SR....share with u here in SR
allows me to get out of my own
thinking an share my own ESH with the
new comer.
Im pretty sure its working because
im not as selfish or unhappy as i used to
be. and the reward is confirmation from
others when ive said something that is
helpful to them in their own recovery.
Thanks for letting me share.